Goal-Get rid of fear

I started this blog thinking I will start writing, this will be the step that gets me to start writing again, but I feel so stuck. What do I talk about in my blog? I set it up in order to discover myself and I feel clueless, as if who would want to read about boring, old me, but I guess the answer is I should just write. My problem is that I am fearful that I my writing has to be perfect, as if I am turning it in to a teacher for a grade. I am so used to writing academically and professionally that I become very afraid to write in the sense that I don’t want someone to read this and think “gosh that girl cannot write.” I feel like someone is going to bust out with a red pen and start marking up my blog in all the spots where I leave off commas or periods or if I create run on sentences. I have been living every aspect of my life with the fear that I will not live up to expectations and that I will be judged. I need to break out of this rut in order to figure out my life and what to do with it.

I just read this in Shannon Kaiser’s blog, which I am loving and discovered through Kristen Carr’s Crazy Sexy blog, who talks about how she discovered what she really wanted to do with her life. She was sick of living her life as a fraud, bummed out doing the same thing year over year and still being unhappy. She was able to figure out what she wanted and go after it. I need to compile a list like hers and make some goals for myself. I have always made goals but recently I cannot get my head thinking about where I want to go with my life. I guess I am sick of trying to get to the top, to be the best, smartest, I am literally tired, I have been fighting for “it” since I was kid. I am tired, I need a respite to figure my life out!

From http://www.playwiththeworld.com/?p=274
Now I feel more at peace, more alive, and more comfortable than I have ever before. Fear was keeping me playing small. It has no place in my life anymore.
Now that I am jumping into the big sea of the unknown, I’ve realized I need clear objectives. My ultimate goal is to be a full-time travel writer and author. So I created a business plan for corporation “Me.” It includes: I make X amount of money each month. I am featured in three magazines a month. I attend one press trip a season. I publish one book a year. By setting concise goals, I have a focus and a clear objective to help me stay on track.