I really do not feel good right now, I feel like I am getting sick and I haven’t been sick in a long time, so this feels pretty craptastic. I feel like I need to vent right now, so many things have been irritating me lately and my patience is low. I need to stop being like that but it is hard when it feels like so many things are not going your way. I really want to find another job or know what I am doing with this life. I feel like I am in limbo right now and I think this is one of the main things that is driving me nuts and stressing me out. Looking for a job is not the easiest thing to do, but I know I need to get started because I am not going anywhere in this company except getting to be an assistant for the rest of my life and that is not something that I want.
I am having a hard time even concentrating or focusing today on anything. It is only 9am and my day is still so long. All I have been eating is saltine crackers, ugh. Also, why is being married so difficult sometimes. I hate the arguments and bickering over dumb stuff, but the dumb stuff is what goes on in your day to day life. I feel like I have taken on the role as my mother does to my father. I just wish things would go by smoothly, that we would agree on everything under the sun, but of course that is not the way it works. It’s all about push and pull, give and receive, when one does too much or not enough of the other, someone on one end feels it.
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